Done

Somewhere in time, this week, I was done.  I know that can mean many things, but let me give you as many clichés as I can think of for what I mean. I was fed up. I had more than I can handle. It was up to here.  I had all I can take and I can’t take no more.  I was done, worn out and stressed.  I think all of us have days like that for various reasons.  I wondered if anyone in the Bible was ever to the breaking point and then I thought of Moses. He must have done something because he was not allowed to enter the Promised Land. 

Moses led the people out of captivity in Israel.  He guided them through the desert to the base of Mt. Sinai where they stopped.  The people brought every little problem and concern to Moses.  No one could handle it but him, they thought.  The toll it took on him must have been evident because it causes his father in law to share some wisdom.

Exodus 18:17-19 “Moses’s father-in-law replied, “What you are doing is not good.  You and these people who come to you will only wear yourselves out.  The work is too heavy for you; you cannot handle it alone.”

Fortunately for Moses, he had someone with wisdom to point out the obvious and give him a plan to reduce his work load.  He also had people he could delegate too.

Unfortunately for me, I have no one to delegate to.  I think I’m where the entire pile of delegated tasks ends up.  I’m exaggerating, but I was stressed, worn out and done.  Did Jesus ever feel that way?  Maybe when he drove the money changers out of the temple, or when he told the Pharisees what their real motives were, but I know he was not like me.  Jesus never sinned and his anger was righteous, directed at corruption.  I do know that Jesus would go off alone to pray.  Maybe that is what I need to do. 

I needed someone trustworthy like Moses had to give my problems to and I could do that through prayer.  I can do what Jesus did and talk to God about my problems. Things did not miraculously change, but my hope has returned.  Only God can do something like that.

Psalm 62:8 “Trust in him at all times, O people: pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.”

I am feeling better today.  I'm a woman, so I have to process my frustration before it will leave me.  I do trust that God has a plan and he is working everything out and I truly don’t have to worry.

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